Also, I can't believe how bullshittingly hard writing a decent essay is. How the fuck do you express your character subtly while also showing it fully? Apparently we're supposed to be clever and subtle and have underlying messages and do all this other smart shit that we've never done before.

I've just been sitting here the past 2 hours thinking of what I wanna write about. I wrote 3 essays, except none of them are complete or are even halfway decent. They're absolute garbage. How any teenager is able to write well enough to get admitted to so many top colleges is beyond me.

And the worst part is, other than those top colleges, the other's don't even offer decent financial aid and I ain't the son of some M.P. in Bangladesh that I have wads of cash laying around.